Good memories have been shared to each other, I still remember the first time we met until the time we had to say goodbye. As I was coming to the Friedensschule, she’s the first person who greeted me and introduced me to the others. I found her as a warm hearted girl and an open minded one. She helped me out a lot in every way she could and tried to make me always comfortable with the differences which appeared as my exchange year has begun. I still remember the time we went to Aasee and sailed with Trefboot. It was an early autumn; we sailed until the edge of Aasee Lake, under the bridge and closed the session by eating an ice cream. After that, we made our way home by bicycle and I still remember that i tried to speak German very hard at that time.
new year's eve 2009
She was the person who had a big influence in encouraging me learning German. I still remember the way she helped me to understand German grammar, which was harder than I’ve ever imagined. I wrote something in my note book and she corrected it and it happened many times until I got only few mistakes in my grammar, thus I realized that my German has been better than before.
I still remember the time I went to school in icy cold weather with her. The way I made from Meyerbeerstrasse – Christoph Bernhard street – until the Friedensschule and we shared lot of story while we were bicycling, Things that I can’t do anymore here. Sometimes, I think about her all at once when I see people riding bicycle and realize that I can’t do the same things like before now.
I still remember in my farewell party when she made my wish came true, by helping me to bake a cherry cake and it tasted wonderful. I also still remember the time I had to say goodbyes earlier to her. I still remember the time I saw her for the last time and I cried.
the last time i saw her in airport
As I was arriving in Indonesia, She sent me a postcard from Muenster. I was so happy at that time. It made my day. But I have never replied it until now and I’m feeling so bad for that. Sorry Lea, verzeichst du mir?
Despite of my guilty feeling let me say happy birthday to her i wish her all the best Luck. She’s 18 now and in Germany 18 means everything. You can drink every sort of beverages you want, You can drive alone after getting the driving license, and most of all you are the highest authority of yourself and I believe it must be an ubercool thingy for her.
It’s so bad for being unable to attend her birthday’s blast this year, but I believe I’ll be attending her other birthday. I don’t know exactly when. But I believe that Es gibt keinen Weg, den nicht irgendwann nach Hause fuehrt. Because home is where the heart is and ich habe sie in meinem Herz geschlossen.
Happy birthday Lea.
Gehts dir gut?
Wir sehen uns nochmal
Bestimmt
i just found those hot-air-balloon-photos like one hour ago and it took my really attention to think about some particular moments. I remember i was taking them one week before i went home with my old camera and i remember that i was daydreaming under the trees with him, had a serious and funny conversation which blended one to another. we made a joke which ranged from the goofy to the witty one. we talked about future, about unsicher future- you name it. I still remember the time i ate raw prawns that he brought to me with copped rosemary, a few black pepper, and a little bit curry spices which i didn’t understand why on earth he put curry into it and of course it tasted so bizarre, but i still loved it. Sometimes when we kidded, we couldn’t hear to each other because the ships came, yes we’re in the bank of canal and we needed a little break to continue our conversation, to make our words heard.
In the phase of having a break i felt something heavenly different, i felt i have been recharged by situation and i had abundant of idea to be spoken. So i concluded that sometimes in some particular situations it wouldn’t be that boring when we had a space. yes it trully was, it’s simply as easy as when you try to read something, you can get its meaning when the space is available, no? Imagine how could i tell him youarepieceofpuzzlethatcompletesme when i wrote that without space. yes sometimes it might be understood but the meaning of it won’t be that emphasizing as it should be.
In the reality, space could be interpreted by many ways. a break or silence for example. it could ruin the berg of boredom and even rejuvenate the feeling of having thousands butterflies in my stomach. for me, it’s somehow really helpful. To maintain something that i hope will last less fragile i like to have a space and it helps me so many times and i kinda rely on that.
But how about if the space’s width is just too extreme? Could it give a sensation of emphasizing that will get me more head over heels? Or it will step by step erode the meaning of it?
Personally I don’t know, and that’s the problem that i have to deal with.
Sorry this is random
this holiday is the most thought- provoking holiday i have ever spent. i have learned lots of things and made many friends. In this holiday i spent my days intensely with ITB IVED Squad and also my debate’s team : trinity.
me, darwin, gladys
For me, having Gladys Brigita and Darwin Sutjiawan as my companion’s such a blast. Both of those people are great and keen-witted. I have learned many things from them and they inspired me so much.
Gladys wanted to join SEF at the very first time because she wanted to prove to people, that she could do it without her former debating partner and she proved it! in the last elimination round, when we had to defeat his long life partner -fyi, Gladys was crying a lot in the night before we competed, she made a very extraordinary speech! she showed to many people watching us that she could get everything she wanted by herself. She rebutted every single point of the opponent’s argument sharply. She showed to many people that she could stand on her’s own two feet. She showed people that actually she could do it and underestimating her is a big mistake that people could ever make, because she’s great!! yes she’s great! Although in the end of the day, we didn’t win but i should give a very high appreciation to her. you inspired me lot Gladys! i know it’s not easy to fill your shoes, but you have made a great things and proved it to me and many people. well done teammie…
Darwin has another story, he was actually the octo-finalist of IVED 2009. I believe that actually he should have won this year competition with his last year partners. but he has sacrificed himself to be part of our teams, to teach us and to give us advices in debating. It was so hard for me to keep considering him as a normal person in my life after we didn’t break into quarter-final because he’s simply amazing. At that time, i was crying -but actually i didn’t want to cry but it happened unexpectedly tho because i thought, i couldn’t help him to pursue his target at least until semi finals. He has done many things to me and i didn’t know how to give him something in return. He came to me and said that all he has done was what he expected to and i should do the same things too. that i should help out my junior how to debate. He taught me lot of things and made me more understand how to debate. I don’t know what i can say to him except thank you, thank you, and thank you. You are inspiring win, yes you are.
Maybe for them I’m just another serious people who can’t give even any sign to tell people how i love them so much. Because when it comes to tell them, it must be too little or too much and I’m such an icy-hearted girl who couldn’t be easily melted by sentimental things and many times became very very stubborn and ignorant, So that’s why i come to write. I hope with this, they can understand what I’ve been feeling and successfully tell them how deep i love them.
you make my life so colorful. I love you Gladys, I love you Darwin, I love you trinity. I hope we can compete as a teammate again in other tourney and other occasion.
Love
Your mutcha
1. i wanna have spare time to finish hundreds of my paintings and music-compositions
2. i want to play saxophone in jazz concert and sing
3. i want to learn Russian
4. i want to solve puzzles as many as i can
5. i want to compete in national and international scope (debate competition)
6. i want to cook something with turkey in it
7. i will try to plant chamomile seeds in my bedroom
8. i want to be able to run very fast and gain my endurance
9. i want to have a tea with him, even if only 5 minutes
10. i want to fly and visit many places
with SEF family @ dago ‘elfa’
wish you a super magnificent year in this new decade of millennium
The leaves fall one by one, its color gradation fulfills the ground and makes the garden becomes colorful, but awful when people should clean it. The sun shines so brightly but can’t bear the wind that blows from time to time, the more it blows the more it will hurt the ears. The leaves keep falling from the top to toe as maroon as the roof top, as yellow as the paint that sticks to the wall. Sometimes it’s orange just like sunset, sometimes it’s very pale yellow just like the mid-day sun. But it’s never green when it falls, it’s just never, i don’t know why maybe some scientific explanation is needed here. however, I think it’s way very interesting. I love to see that changing phenomenon. Sometimes it could be the better one, sometimes it doesn’t -but who cares?
Autumn phenomenon is always be my favorite phase in every year. Sometimes when I talk about autumn it could be a very interesting one, on how people try to place themselves in the condition after their non-stop-happiness in summer to the most depressing moment, since the sun seems too arrogant to show its warmth off, but the wind becomes more social. it comes always everyday and always greets us, tries to sing a song a long and directly to our ears. Although as we all know, the wind has no good voice and it better shuts up.
Sometimes we curse winter to come because it forces us to eat so much so possible to keep our body warm after having our skin tanned from summer. It gives no chance for us to show our effort off. It makes us fat and consumes more alcohol at that time, because it’s simply cold! but you know? sometimes we seek some surprises that could freeze our boiling heart : snowflakes. When the color of maroon, yellow, red, brown, terracotta become white. Heavenly white that even can tame your angry heart. A surprise from the sky.
The changing phenomenon affects me now, after my life changing experience has to be changed again to be the re-adjusted one. I’m in the autumn phase of my life. Sometimes i wake up and find i’m not there anymore and i regret it and i cry. Being here again is one of the fact i have to face after one year long having a summer phase in my life. Yes one more time, i’m in autumn phase in my life now and i still don’t know what to do, how to cope with that.
But in no longer time, the phase will turn into winter and i hope i could find snowflakes in it.
In this tiny tiny time.
I knew her for the first time in philosophy class. That was the day when I started to attend school in my exchange year. At that time I still couldn’t speak German very well, but she helped me out to understand what Herr Kalus said and once a while she helped me to understand what Herr Kalus wrote -because Herr Kalus’s handwriting was so unreadable for that time, but as the time went by I already got used to it.
We had talked a lot of things, about our favorite lesson, our hobby, our favorite teacher (which was accidentally similar) sometimes we also talked about our family. From our conversation, I thought she was one of struggle girl that I have ever known. She lived alone in Muenster and she had to manage her daily needs by herself. But, she looked always happy everyday.
gesa and alexa
Many things happened between us, many good memories have filled my heart. I still remember the time when we had lunch and she screamed “Muti, don’t eat that fish because, it has a skin” and also when I ate salad with tuna she said that tuna was a penis!! And I started to puke out and she thought my face was so funny and made that moment became a forever school joke.
gesa, maren, teta
She likes sushi when many of my friends don’t and she loves washabi as well. So, when I cooked sushi, I always put her on my list and I always looked forward to her attendance. On my birthday, she and Vanessa gave me a voucher to go with boat and have a lunch with menu I want to eat. But, unfortunately until the day I had to go back to Indonesia. We had no time to make it come true. The last time I saw her was one week before my departure. She and the other friends already booked a ticket to Mallorca because they thought I would go home 2 weeks after that. It was a sad day to say goodbye earlier to them. My last week in Germany was so empty without them. But Gesa text me intensely, what she and the other did there and the last night in Germany -when I couldn’t sleep at all, she still kept text-ing me. As I was already in airport, I tried to call her and said goodbye but there was no answer. I was so sad but I believed that we would meet again, someday, somewhere, somehow.
courtesy : deviant art
Today is her birthday, she is 19 now. I can imagine she will make a big party there and I’m soooo sad because I can’t celebrate it together with her. In her special day, I just want to say: Gesa, alles gute zu deinem Geburtstag. I wish you always healthy and lucky. Und ich wuensche dass wir uns wieder treffen koennen. I miss you so bad.
Im freundschaft und Liebe
Deine Meutia
i just saw my calendar and i just realized that Christmas is on its way.
last year was my first extravagant Christmas. i still remember the first time i saw snow and how i was so excited, that was the most thought-provoking time in my life.
remembering Christmas is remembering all the beautiful memories that i have spent with you,i still remember the time we baked cookies together and at the time i had no idea how to bake a cake, but since that time i could make every cookies only by reading the recipe. i also still remember the time when we built Christmas tree and celebrated Advent-Calendar, it was so fun to look forward what i was gotta get everyday. I remember the time i went to Weihnachtmarkt by bicycle and drank Gluehwein and met you. The time i spent only with laugh and happiness. Time that runs so fast more than i could ever imagine.
I still remember the time, i fell down because you said that i rode my bike too fast, you were laughing and i was almost crying because the snow felt like it slapped me. i had my face red simply like i had just survived from a plane crash. You showed me my face on the surface of Aasee lake and then i laughed so hard. We laughed so hard at that time, you know? since that time i have never laughed that hard again.
A lot of memories i have kept in my mind, sometimes i open it, when i miss you and start to remember you. It is simply like a magic pill that can change my mood dramatically, rejuvenate my boredom, and boost my spirit.
do you know? remembering Christmas is always exhilarating, knowing and spending time together with you are the most exhilarating thing in my life.
Remembering Christmas means remembering the food you cooked for me and it always tastes great. I still can remember how it tastes although i’m thousands miles away from you. Remembering Christmas means remembering the time i cried like a baby because everything seems like freezing all the way, i hated it and i thought i couldn’t stand it. But you said you have experienced something worse than that. It relieved me and made everything better.
remembering Christmas is the most favorite part that ever exists in my brain which turns to be too left-brained lately and i don’t like it.
Christmas is something really personal for me.
and i miss you so bad
i just got this message on my facebook. i just don’t know that “i do 30″ has done this far! in December they will go to UN Climate Change Conference and they will present what they have done so far and how big the impact “i do 30″ has affected in reducing carbon emission. Sebastian has chosen best statement to be showed at statement board and one of them is mine 
. I’m so proud of that, i hope that the statements could be widely spread and all of the people are inspired to do this simple thing and realize how big it will help us to have a better planet to live.
last week i uploaded my song i made -in collaboration with the one i miss so much. i made this song due to joining a competition namely “deine stimme” which is held from Goethe Institut all over the world and the winners are able to go to germany in January 2010!!!! The prerequisites are quite easy, All the participants are required to write a lyrics in German and combine it with the music given. I have written “Guckt mal unsere Mutter Erde an” which means “Look at our Mother Earth”. This song was made obviously to warn all the people to stop environmental destruction and degradation, if we don’t want to see more people are injured because of natural disasters. If you wanna hear it you can click here , comments and stars are always warmly welcomed
Uh-oh these entire weeks are super tiring but i hope i could get some virtues from it.
fuer meine Maedels
wie gehts euch? ich vermisse euch ganz ganz sehr.
Gerade habe ich an die Nachricht geguckt, dass schon wieder Erdbeben in Indonesien gab und das ist mehr kraeftig. Letzten Monat habe ich solche Erfahrung gehabt, ich war in meiner Physik klasse als Erdbeben passiert ist. Das ist einfach fuer mich ganz traumatisch und ich habe einfach nur Angst, Angst , und Angst davor jeden Tag. Ich kann nicht gut schlafen, denn ich habe Angst vor Erdbeben, dass er ploetzlich wieder kommt, als ich schlafe.
Manchmal, wenn ich Angst habe, ich errinere mich an unsere schoene Zeit. Das finde ich eine gute Erholung fuer mich. Ich errinere mich an unseren Mittwochabend zum desperate Housewife gucken und Spaghetti kochen, und auch an unseren Freitagabend zum Party gehen. Machmal liest ich auch ein schoenes Buch, das Ihr mir gegeben habt. Ich habe auch es meinen Freunden gezeigt, und es gefaellt Sie.
Gerade habe ich auch mit Kaory geskypt, wir haben so viele ueber Deutschland geredet (gelabert vielleicht?hehehe) und wir vermissen Deutschland echt sehr. und euch genauso, fuer uns Ihr seid einen guten Gastgeber . Wir wuenschen, dass wir uns irgendwann mit euch wieder treffen koennen. wieder desperate Housewife gucken und vielleicht sushi abend machen (obwohl nicht alle von euch sushi moegen).
Na ja meine Maedels. ich hoffe das euch gehts gut und viel Erfolg in der Schule. ich weiss ,dass 12. Klasse sehr schwer geworden ist aber ich wusste auch ja schon, dass Ihr eine Super maedels seid und Ich vertraue dass Ihr alles schaffen koennt.
Bitte drueckt mir die Daumen. Hoffentlich kann ich euch naechstes Jahr besuchen.
Ich denke an euch ganz oft
deine Muti Schnutti
